I've been thinking of quite a few things these few days while in Tekong but I'm just plain lazy to recall everything and write it here.

SITest is over. Guess i did pretty alright. Not very well, not up to my expectations, but i guess its good enough. =)

A levels results are coming out soon. I'm not nervous. Just feeling lost i guess. Not nervous because having straight As no longer mean much to me. I used to be aimming for the best results and to top the cohort. But not now I'm sure. All these are no longer important. Because the "moltivation for me to strive for all these" are gone. And I'll be contended to just have the results that would enable me to get into the course and uni that i want to go to. But i've not thought of what i want exactly yet. And thats why I'm feeling lost and hoping that the results will not be released that early.

I've made up my mind about going to command school and have indicated my choice too. My buddy says that you'll need to have "moltivations" to help you get through the tough trainings in command schools. I agree totally with him. I know what i've got and what i don't. Hope i would regret the steps that i shall take from now on.

I was not chosen for the MP interview. Neither am i chosen for intel. Disappointment is the only thing i can say i guess. Nobody would know how i feel and there's just no one i can turn to to share all my feelings.. just because not everyone understands. I curious to know the criteria for MP selection. I'm curious to find out why i did not meet their requirements. I know all these are no longer important, but i'm just curious.

Gonna POP like real soon. I don't really know if i should be happy about it or what. Some things are just hard to explain.

NS stuff aside, I think i'm starting to enjoy my life more now.. in a different manner from the past. I'm spending my time doing more fulfilling stuff i guess.

Was thinking of buying a MP4. Went looking for it briefly today. Didn't buy yet. And by dinner time, i decided not to buy one. I just don wanna regret spending half or over half of my pay on it. its not exactly worth it actually. I don really need a MP3 or 4 urgently now actually.

I just don know, but i'm confussed. Too many things in my mind. Too many things that has yet to be decided. Too many things to think through. Too many too many stuff.. really. I really need a long LONG break. away from everything and just let my brain rest. Its contradicting actually. I didn't really get to use my brain in NS and yet now i'm sounding as though my brain's stressed up.


As much as i want to,
i know i cant.
Because i just cant get it through..
And i don have the confidence to do so.

Its all about NS

Time flies.

It has been one month since i've enlisted.

Have not been updating my blog.. Partly because...

1) I do not have the time to do so.
2) Some stuff could not be share/written here.
3) The above are pure excuses. I'm just lazy to update. lolx.

Everything is fine I guess. NS life has a fair share of everything.

The first 2 weeks of confinement week was alright. I thought I achieve certain things which I've not done before. Just had that feeling to wanna "push myself more". =)

Got my Marksman too! =) Was initially going for the coy best shot. But i missed one shot. Was damn emo after i missed that shot. But I concluded something from that.. You'll perform better without "stress". lolx. Cos after that shot, every shot was fine. More of enjoying myself more than trying to shoot well.

Went for SDC visit. Nothing much to say, but i just wanna quote something which one of the "officer" said. (He got this from another famous person too.)

"In times of war, there's no prize for the runners-up."

I agree totally.

Just ended field camp. Came home with blue blacks on my knees. Its just because of one activity and my knees blue black liao. lolx.

Field camp makes me ponder about whether i really wanna go command school or just be men. I've not made up my mind yet. I just need my confidence back. CONFIDENCE! =)

"ANIMAL BEHIND TREE!!!"

WAHAHAHAHAA. You will only know about the joke if you're in my platoon. lol. Ask me about it if you wanna know. Its very embarrassing yet funny.


Roughly 1 month to POP! =)