My NS future

Its more or less confirmed.

I'm going to S3 branch while Edward and Clarence is going to S2 branch. There's still a possibility of us swopping vocations should one of us fail any security clearance.

If you were to ask me, i would say i'm personally quite happy with this outcome. Just cant imagine going to S2 branch. I'm quite desperate for the spec rank and pay, but i'm not that desperate to the extent of wanting to go S2.

Whether I'll get my spec rank at S3 is not confirm yet. I hope i would. But even then, the earliest i will get my promotion would be next year.

Things are quite complicated still. I just realised that i have not been boarded yet, despite having seen at MO at july. As such, i have not gotten my PES status while Clarence and Edward have gotten theirs.

The 3 of us are wearing CPL rank. But since i have not been boarded, I guess i'm still a SCT in the system, drawing SLIGHTLY higher pay and the risk pay.

I'm not sure if i should rush to get my PES updated. Downgrading my PES would just mean lower pay. But since I'm on my way to my new vocation, i doubt I'll be rushing to get it updated.

Through these few months in NS, I realised the importance of having a good relationship with everyone. It just makes things easier for me. There's definitely a difference how someone will treat you and another guy just because you're closer to them, you helped them more etc etc. I'm glad I made quite a few friends in SP coy and even with the medics.

Sad to say, the 3 of us will be posted to HQ coy next week onwards. That means going to a new yet unknown place and starting all over again. But its alright, for i know whatever friendship/working relationship that i've made shall continue to grow. =)

Hoping everything at the new vocation will turn out fine. I really hope it will.

The rest of the guys have went through 3 weeks of RCC. Regrets? A little actually. I've been regreting as and when i was tod of what the rest are doing. But i know i may regret even if i'm going through RCC now. No matter what, i shall try not to get to emo about whatever decisions i've made in the past, since i know that whatever decisions i've made is the past and is over. =)

On the brighter note, we had some fun last week. Me and Edward did something silly, dangerous and exciting. LOL. There was nights out on wednesday night. Apparently noone told us about it and we only realise about it when we left our room for dinner. We then decided to go out for dinner and movie at JP. Bought a ticket for a 2110 movie and went for dinner. We thought the movie will end before 2330, so that we'll be able to make it back to camp on time. By the way, we are supposed to book back camp by 2230. By 2330, the movie has not ended and we were "forced" to leave the cinema. Reluctantly, we left and took a cab back to camp and merely met the timing. When going up the stairs to our bunk, we saw our PC! Luckily, he was talking on the phone and we just sneak pass him and ran back to our bunk! LOL. Guess nobody would have dare to do whatever we did. LOL.

I just hope whatever privileges we are enjoying now will not end. Hopefully it wont.

Life's so bored.... LOL. (At least for mine)

I still haven got my new handphone!! Should i get HTC Touch Diamond 2, Omnia II or Omnia HD???

Quite a few stuff happened last week, but i'm not going say much. Cos its about NS anyway. Was and is damn sick of NS. =(

I wanna go play badminton and ping pong!! And perhaps soccer as well?

I realised i gotta start chiong-ing my driving. Could have went for driving today since i'm so free that i spend my off day sleeping -.-

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I realised I've to book in soon... and there's alot of things that i have not done/thought through. Seems like i have over enjoyed my weekend.

Should i say yes to be a Int Spec or just be an admin clerk?

Going outfield next week.... alone... when i'm not the one who's supposed to go.

Sadded.

Time to rush to book in.

Gonna suck thumb for 3 days of outfield!!

ARGH!

EMO EMO EMO...

I don know what the fuck is wrong with me.

Haiz...

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I'm currently converting 3 videos into MPEG4 format. 2 are done. Converting the last one. And my computer is lagging like mad now. Wonder if its because of the conversions.

Currently watching TV too. Chelsea vs Sunderland. Its a repeated telecast.

And there's still lots of things that i wish i would be able to do now. But its never possible lahz. too many things that i want to do le. Perhaps its my multi-tasking skills that is the problem. LOL.


Anyway, CCAI course is finally over. I'm officially a CCAI!! lol. Currently enjoying my "block off", but sad to say, its coming to an end soon. Good times doesn't last. lol. think next week would be a tough week. have been told to prepare our fieldpack. Guess next week will be full of fast marches, IPPT, runs, MOI, SBO blah blahblah.

Someone asked me what i'm planning to do after NS and during NS. It kind of makes me really start wondering how I'm gonna make full use of my 2 years. I'm gonna go register for my driving lesson soon. Perhaps tml. I'm still wondering what i'm gonna do for the rest of my NS time. Perhaps go for some studies? I miss studying. (Perhaps my mind isn't working well these few days)

Got very interested with stocks these few days. Guess my friends influenced me. I'm gonna go find out how exactly does the stock market works.

Flipped through my sister's textbook on some finance stuff. Looks very interesting to me. Gonna read it when i got the time. =)

I really wanna be a full time student.

I'm still waiting for my confirmed PES status to be out first before i make any decisions. But then again, i don know exactly how long more i will have to wait. Army needs to be more efficient. Really.

All 3 videos have been converted! =D I'm gonna have my stuff on my iTouch. =)

Went for swensens ice cream buffet with my mum and 2nd sis on wed. Ate ice cream like i've never eaten before. lol. Overall, its not that bad la... not exactly superb though. Photos to be uploaded soon.

Brought my mum to kinokuniya after that. She bought 3 books with the vouchers i had from college day, while i spent my time reading a book on STOCKS! Wahaha. I like kino man. Its damn big with lots of books. Gonna revisit the store soon to read plus perhaps buy some books. =)



I finally understand why some people says time heals... Because it really does. It just depends on how long we need. =)

Random =)

Time check: 0059hrs.

In roughly 4 hours time, i've to force myself to wake up and prepare to leave for PLC. Gonna revisit the place which has left several wonderful memories. I'm there this time round for CCAI course. Its 3 weeks long and its gonna be physically demanding i guess. And i 100% sure that i'm not ready for it(physically and mentally).

Anyway, the reason why i'm here is because i realised i haven been blogging this week! Lame shit! lolx.

I don really have anything to post though. Just merely typing some nonsense.

Anyway, its so damn surprising that tingju sms-ed to ask for a pre u sem gathering. But they having it this tues, which means there's no way for me to join. =( Its really a long time since i last met those peeps.

I just felt like meeting many different groups of people all of the sudden. It really feels great meeting up with friends. After all that has happened, I really do cherish my friends now. =)

Time check: 0113hrs.

I'm very tired, but i still don feel like sleeping. My body clock is spoilt.

Bike license

My attempt to get myself the approval to learn civilian bike failed. I knew it would fail. Merely trying my luck, testing if there's really such a thing called miracle. Obviously it doesn't. LOL.

Perhaps I'll learn it secretly?

I just don understand why my parents don have the same thinking as me. Why don't they agree that riding a bike is much much more convenient and "logical"?

My view of "convenient" : Able to get myself to and fro camp easily. Able to obtain a bike license quickly. Its definitely faster than a car license. Furthermore, I've got the riding experience.

My dad's view of "convenient": Being able to get through a traffic jam ASAP.

DOTS DOTS DOTS!


My arguement for learning bike:
1) Its a waste after going through 1 month of bike course and not going for a civilian bike license isn't it?
2) Its the only affordable form of transport (lets just put public transport aside) for me at the current moment.
3) Can bring me to wherever i want. Can bring me to camp and even to uni next time. (A car can do the same, but you cant expect me to drive my dad's car to camp, park there for the whole day/week then drive back again ya?)
4) Even if a get myself a car license i'll just be driving the car for fun. Thats means happy then drive out go play play. My dad needs to use the car quite frequently. The only time I get to use the car is perhaps 2-4pm? and maybe 8-12midnight? (I'll still want a car license, its just that i'd like to take bike first.

My parents arguement:
1) Bike is very dangerous. I don deny it. Its a fact actually. BUT! Everything also has its own danger what. Driving a car will also get you into an accident. There's also news of cars/vans over turned and the drivers passed away ya?

2) Cars now are cheap. So can go learn and drive.
Correction: Cars are cheap-er now. Compared to bikes, they're still expensive. I can buy a 2nd hand bike at less than 2k,but not a car ya?


I want to ride a bike! And i want to own a bike!!! I know its not possible, but i still prefer to remain dreaming! =D

Should i learn to secretly? LOL.





Anyway, was listening to songs in my bunk last week, and came across James Blunt's You're Beautiful. Reminded me of someone. But... the last sentence of the song brings me back to reality. (But its time to face the truth... I will never be with you.)

Like I've said, I don't mind remaining in my dreams. =)

New PES status..

Yes, I've downgraded my PES status. To be exact, I'll be downgraded to Pes C1L3 in slightly more than a month time.


I've actually written a long long post about this issue and the reasons for the choice, but i just cant seem to express what i really think and feel deep down. The more i write, the more i feel what i wrote sounds weird and the more "confused" i get.

Forget it. Since i've made that choice, there's no point looking back and thinking if its the right choice. I know PES C life isnt for me. I know I'll regret my decision. But this is really not a suitable vocation for me. And there's no other way for me to get out.

Honestly speaking, i prefer a chiong sua life. Its such chiong sua life that we make botak guys bond, and its the same chiong sua life that will make NS memorable. I know i'll not be able to experience sure things as a "office boy". But like what i said, i wasn't really given a choice do I?

All I can do now, is to enjoy and cherish the times I'm gonna spend with my peers.


Humans are really weird creatures. When you are getting yourself dirty, sweating like mad, chiong sua-ing like nobody's business, you wished to be in a office being a clerk. When you finally get what you wanted, you would prefer sweating it out. (change all the "you"s to "I"s)

Chapter next.

I finally got my bike license. Its back to unit tml morning.



Somehow, it feels sad leaving SAFDC, or rather, having to say goodbye to my bike friends from other units.



















And this is my military license. =)



Bikees.. Bersurai!

Turn check bang check left right left... BIKEES!

LOR ASRAMA

I never expected track riding to be that fun.

Went Lor Asrama today for track riding. Was quite fun. For every 2 mins spent riding the bike, we took 5 mins break and another 15 mins finding durians or plucking rambutans! lolx.

I had a ultra mini fall on my butt while trying to pluck rambutans with my friends. I was the only one among the 3 ppl to fall!! And the worst thing is... we pulled the tree branch... it broke... but no rambutans fell! LOL.

I enjoyed myself thoroughly today! It was really fun.

Mei hao de shi guang zhong shi guo de hen kuai. Bike course is ending soon. I'll miss my bike friends from other units... really. Those are the ppl who can be true friends. (though there are quite a few weirdos there too.)

I hope everything will turn out fine on fri.


Tml shall be the day that will determine if i get to meet her. FATE... lets just leave it to fate. =)

Perhaps... it may not necessary be a curse in disguise the other day. =)


I WANNA GET MYSELF A BIKE LICENSE AND A VERY VERY COOL BIKE!!! <-- A big fat hope. =p No harm dreaming though.

Random crap

Its amazing... yet totally SCARY... how fast a person really changes.

Its either you've really changed, or that I've not known you deep enough..

A curse in disguise..

Din get to (wx)(dc)(dc) (yn)(dc)(fv) this morning. But saw (yn)(dc)(fv) this evening while waiting for the bus home.. But it was a CURSE IN DISGUISE man! WTH! LOL.

Perhaps i'm thinking too much. =)

I miss going to school everyday.. lol. (thats an indirect way of saying i don wanna "wear green")

About me.

Something (or rather quite a few things) have been lingering in my mind. But somehow, i just feel like keeping all these to myself. Its not something serious actually.

I think I've changed. Not sure if thats good though.


Anyway, my house water piped burst. lolx. And I cant go for my shower. Went to do the quiz that laoda did. Here's the results. Some are true, some not really.

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. (Hmmm... LOL)You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes. (I wonder how true..)

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. (Wahahaa... perhaps true? LOL.) The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. (NOT TRUE NOT TRUE!! I don have any admirer now!! =(... LOLX.) But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can. (Very True.)

The right job for you:You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success. (Not really lehz... i don even know what i really want.)

How do you view success:You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. (TRUE) Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of things that you cannot control. (Quite true) Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long. (MOOD SWINGS!! YES, i have it! =p)


How true? Up to you guys to judge bahz. Off to my shower! =)


(k,) (yn)(l.)(;/)(dc) (k,) (sx)(k,)(o.)(o.) (tb)(dc)(gb) (gb)(l.) (wx)(dc)(dc) (hn)(l.)(jm) (gb)(uj)(o.) (uj)(l.)(fv)(yh)(k,)(yh)(tb)!

I doubt anyone can solve this. =)

dilemma..

41 of us went for the motorbike balancing test.

17 managed to pass.

15 passed circuit route test.

And I'm one of the 15! =)

Went out to the main road today. Just imagine how scary it is to go to the main road in the afternoon when you have just passed circuit in the morning. And we'll be doing night riding tml.

First time on the road as a rider is really an eye opener yet scary experience for me. Riding/Driving on the road is COMPLETELY different from sitting in the car. Some things are just hard to explain by writing. I finally understood why people always say ma lu ru hu kou. I think they should change it to ma lu ru shi zhi da kai kou man! LOL. =)

After today's public road riding, i started thinking about whether i would dare to ride on the road if i have a civilian license now. LOL. It seems quite "stupid" for me to go through 1 month of motorbike course (which they deem is tougher than commercial course) and not go for commercial ones to get myself a civilian license. Even if i wanted to (and i really wanted to), my parents would not allow too.

Then again, here comes problem no. 2. If i have a bike license, then it does not make sense if i dont get myself a bike and start riding.

But then again, riding motorbike is really dangerous and my parents would not allow me to do so. (Dilemma no. 3)

lol. Am I thinking too much?


Anyway, saw something funny, yet sounds very realistic today. it goes like this:

--FRUSTRATIONS--
Say already also don listen
Listen already also don understand
Understand already also don do
Do already also do wrong
Wrong already also don admit
Admit already also don correct
Correct already also not happy
Not happy also don say.

sounds so true... lolx.


That thought kept recurring in my mind. Its not likely to come true though. =) (Not likely =/= impossible) LOL. I'm overly optimistic. =)

It has been a long long time since i last blogged. The only reason why there wasn't any new post was not because there wasn't anything to post, but rather, things aren't really going to well for me for the past 2 to 3 weeks. And i guess thats the reason for me not having the mood to blog.

I think i was really kinda suay for the past 3 weeks or so. Having to know that i've been posted to Armour as a recce at the end of the block leave wasn't such a good thing. I cant exactly say that training is tough. Neither can i say that it wasn't tough. All i can conclude after the first week there was that i wasn't suitable for that vocation. And thats exactly why i have been emo-ing for the whole of my first week there. And it really feels bad when there's nobody who will/can understand what i am going through. At times i really hope that someone will be there to listen to all my complains, or rather just listen to how i really feel and perhaps give me advice, but then again, its hard for people to really understand how i really feels and its even tougher for me to "open up" completely.

I just hope that things will end up well and everything will end SOON and in the way that i wanted it to be. I'm praying hard...

In case you are wandering why i say training was not exactly tough and not exactly un-tough, this is the reason.

The tough part is having to run a total of 23++km for the first week. This includes a 10km run on thurs, followed by IPPT test on fri morning. (How can someone perform at his optimum after the 10km run? but then again, my 2.4 timing improved by a tiny little bit.) The not so tough part is that we do get enough time for us to rest and wash up etc etc.

But then, i must still say that this vocation isn't suitable for me. And i have no reasons why was i selected (or rather dragged) into this S**T. Well, certain things i shall not reveal here..

How i wish the bike course can last longer. And yes, I'm currently learning how to ride a motocycle in Army. Sounds great? Not exactly though. But at least its something which i enjoy doing and the instructors there are really really good. Or at least they treat me SLIGHTLY better.. Thats what my friends told me. lol. (not true though. The instructors are good to most ppl.)


Sometimes i really wonder why I'm doing certain things/ why do i have to do certain things...

End of BSLC, start of block leave. Time to think of my uni apps..

Warning! Long post ahead. =)

Its finally over.

Passed out from BSLC last friday. Got my new posting too. 46th SAR as Armour Section Leader. I'm not sure if I should be glad with my posting, but i guess i should. 3/4 of my platoon stayed on for ASLC. Who am I to complain?

Told some people about my posting. Their replies were negative. The camp is really ulu! Really! But guess its not too bad lahz. At least quite a few people got posted there as well (even though for different vocations). At least, booking in and out wont be so lonely. =)

Back to BSLC.. Went through fieldcamp, grandslam, 28km march and most importantly, went through 8 weeks with the 'worst' PWO.

28km march was quite alright, except that I was really very very sleepy halfway through the march. Believe me man... having to walk 28km from 9pm till 5am the next day isn't an easy thing. Its not really tiring, but rather sleepy. I still cant believe that i could route march and sleep at the same time. (neither can my mum! lolx.) Slept for about 20mins halfway through the march and felt more refreshed after that. Quite afew people fell asleep too. And its funny watching them walk and drift! lolx.

BSLC was not as siong as what i heard before. Training was alright. Outfield wasn't that bad either. The numerous "sa-mu-lahs" that we went through was just a form of encouragement for us to know our stuff and execute it better. Having to do fire movement over and over again was indeed tough. But once we got through everything, the amount of rest time given to us just makes all Chiong Sua-ing worth it.

PWO was... I don really know what word to use, but i guess he's ok bah. No matter how he treated us, i know that its for our own good. I just gotta thank him for getting our basics right and teaching us to be a better sect comd. Of cos, i must also thank him for always mistaking me for Sheldon (my bunkmate). I just can't imagine that he could actually call me Sheldon 3 times a day within a short period of just less than 30mins. Do we really look that alike?

Somehow, i felt kinda sad at the last day of BSLC, especially when i knew that most of my section people stayed behind for BSLC. For some reason, i kinda felt sad/disappointed as they do. Life's just not fair.

For some reason, i like my SISPEC sectionmates more than my BMT ones. Somehow, i just bond better with them. And i think they are not as abnormal and they don tend to do things with motives. Although towards the ending part of SISPEC, some of them kinda changed, and i kinda changed my opinion of certain people, i think when i look back at the last 8 weeks, everything is still memorable. =) I'll miss my section-mates. And I really wish them all the best in ASLC.

Halfway through my block leave. I haven achieved anything. Guess i've been wasting way too much time playing with my ipod. lolx.

I just its really time for me to settle down and seriously think through about my university applications. Gotten acceptance from the 3 local Us. Somehow, NUS is outta my preference. its now between NTU business or SMU Econs and Business. Even though I'm more towards accepting SMU, I'm still kinda undecided. Or rather, I still cant make an informed choice.

Some peopl i spoke to encouraged me to go for the double degree at SMU. Thats what I'm thinking of too. Ultimately, have a degree in econs and another in biz will definitely be better than just having a biz degree, because in my impression, i think that with a biz degree, i cant really do much. But then again, having a second degree would mean additional stress. What if I cant cope? And of cos, there's really no point taking a double degree if both are not of first class honours. To think about it, any employer would definitely wanna hire someone with first class honours than someone with 2 pass-able degrees.

Another (dump) reason why i'm rather reluctant to go SMU is because... there's nobody i know thats going there! Nobody's going for Econs as far as i know. Not many people going to SMU. Ng Li is the only one that i knew got accepted by SMU Acc. But then, whether she accept or not is another issue. I really don feel like going to a University with no friends there man. Make friends, make friends and make more friends.. but all these takes time.

But then again, the reason why i'm still considering NTU is because of their hostel. I still have the feeling that staying in a hostel would make a difference to uni life. SMU students say it doesn't really matters. I'm not sure how true it is. Ultimately they would not say something negative about their uni ya?

I've another reason why i feel so strongly about staying in hostel, but i'm just gonna keep it to myself at the moment. Lets see if my opinion is right at the end of my uni life. =)

Anyway.. Here's hows my block leave went...

Saturday

Went for SMU-SOE tea session. The people there is not as "scary/competitive" as what i have always assume them to be. lolx. Someone brought up the issue on class participation and one of the seniors said "... at the end of the day, when you raise up your hand and look at your fingers, you realise that none of them are of the same length. Thats just how unfair life is. Life's unfair. And thats the way it is..." What she said does makes sense. And the reason why i feel strongly about this is because sometimes things ain't really fair. Look at the army posting and it shows something. At last, for once, army has taught me something useful, something to help me overcome everything and anything that may be unfair. That is to suck thumb and suffer in silence.

Sunday

Woke up at 11 plus plus. Open the NBS letter to confirm the timing and venue for NTU Biz tea session. I thought it was at 2pm. It was at 10am instead. =P

The blur me..

Looking back at it. I think i kinda stupid. lolx. Which University would actually hold a tea session on a SUNDAY AFTERNOON?!?! lolx.

After that went for ping pong session. Went CCK CC and realised i kena Fang Fei Ji! lolx. The funny thing was, my mum drove me to CCK CC. Before she left she asked me if I wanted her to wait for me to get down and ensure that my friends are really there before she leave. I said no, which i regreted later. =p

Took cab over. Its all worth it lahz... no complain. =) Nothing bits getting to meet up with my friends again.. really. Its really good to meet up whenever we could.

Oh ya. And something funny happened while on the way back. I was on my way to take bus home when a guy approached me. The first thing i thought was that he's gonna sell me something or want me to do some survey... so i said "no." straight away. lolx.

Then the guy asked for my height, which i also don know why, i answered him. lolx. Then the weird thing occur. He asked me if i'm interested to go into drama.. lolx. I'm like... HUH?!?!

Really cant imagine myself acting man. lolx.

At night went for dinner with my family and relative. Reached home at 1am plus, close to 2. lolx.

Mon

Went for movie with ZH. Initially wanted to go for Sakae after movie but he had to go see doc, so just watch movie nia.

Tue.

Went Borders today. Went down all the way to Wheelock place to spend the Borders gift voucher i received from last year's college day. lolx. And i bought this book..

My mum's reaction: "Wah, buy such a thick book ar." (its about 350 pages)

My Sis reaction: "Why you buy this kinda book? So no life one..." LOL!

Anyway, this is a book was ECONOMICS stuff!! lolx. Somehow, i bought this book without really reading through part of the book. lolx.

No wonder Eugene would say... " I think Econs suits you."

=D

Some random thought appeared in my mind while i'm walking home on monday evening. And i guess you'll be the one who will understand what i mean when i write it this way...

Everytime it rains, I'd put my hand on your head and you would in turn try to put yours on mine. =)

Beautiful memories last. =)

Ipod touch!

Bought ipod touch last Sunday just before i booked in. More than one month of my pay is gone. =(

I'm still trying to figure out how the downloading of stuff works. But the ipod itself is really cool. =)

I failed my SOC.

Cant clear low ropes.

For the first time, I failed low ropes.

For the first time, I did not manage to clear all 11 obstacle.

Tried the low ropes thrice. just slipped and fell.

Perhaps my body's too tired. Perhaps...

I know its not a good excuse though. But I've told myself that I'll never run the last 600m without my number tag again. NEVER!

Was damn sad after the low ropes. Practically gave up the whole test after that obstacle.

I'm gonna pass the next test. And clear it under 10min. =)

On the brighter side of things, i'm getter closer with some of my section mates. Got to understand them better, both on the good and bad side. And got to interact (or rather gossip) with them more. =)

SY told me that he has set a target of making his first $100,000 by 23 years old. After hearing that, I kept brainstorming about the things that i can do during my 4 years uni period to earn money. Nothing great comes to my mind. I know giving tuition is one of the choices, but thats not what i really wanna do. Hopefully I can come out with some great ideas by then.

I finally recieved NTU's reply regarding my university application! =) Got accepted into NBS! =)Was so worried for the past few weeks cos i haven recieved any reply from them yet. Now, I just hope that SMU will welcome me to their school. =)

If thats the case, i'll then have to decide where to go. Honestly, I have not made up my mind as to whether i wanna go NBS or SMU economics. The answer will come when its time i hope. =)

I finally brought my comp back to life. Spend 3k plus to buy & fix this comp 3 years ago but didn't really get to use it. So decided that i shall give it more "life". lolx.

Found this video about the fancy drill during one of the national day celebrations back in sec sch. Brings back many wonderful memories. If I'm given a choice, I would definitely wanna go back to the past.

Try to spot me! lolx. I only managed to spot myself at some point throughout the whole video. lolx.

Fancy drill again. Can find me? lolx.

SISPEC and SMU interview

Alright, here comes my long post.

3 weeks in SISPEC. Going on to the 4th week soon. Can say that I'm still coping well there, though i don really like the environment. Its still too early to conclude if I'm really suitable to be there. Have not gone through their field camp. Don even know if i could go through it alive. Of cause, theres still Ex. Wanderer. Lectures and basic stuff/lessons are gonna end next week. what comes ahead, is more outfield. I know the tempo is gonna get faster and things gonna get tougher, but i'm not mentally prepared though.

Like what most people will do, I shall just lie low and remain unknown. Its rather impossible i know.

SISPEC - Suffer In Silence Plus Extra Confinement. (copied from somewhere)

Got shortlisted for armour scout. Not sure if i should be honoured or feel suay. Got a strong feeling that i may get in. Its really tough for me to put down all my thoughts in words. As much as I want to play a significant role, leading a unique 1 and a half years, I just cant imagine myself going through those trainnings. I know it just gotta do with my mentality.

Theres nobody who will be able to know how I really feel. There's just nobody whom I can share my thoughts with.

My mum is funny though.

I told her that i'll get a bike liscense if I'm really posted as armour scout.

Her immediate reply? Don't learn motor lahz... very dangerous one.

LOL. Do I have a choice? =)

Anyway, back to SISPEC...

I don really like my platoon. They don seem to cooperate. After the incident about the red booklets, I realized that some of my platoon-mates are really selfish. They knew certain info but simply refuses to reveal to you... even when you asked him about it. All he cares is completing his stuff asap. In the end, 2 out of 5 sections get things done wrongly. My section is one of them. And worse still, I'm the LSC then.

My friend told me that if the same thing were to occur in OCS, it'll be totally different. I agreed with him, even though i'm not in OCS.



Went for SMU interview yesterday. I must say I didn't really prepare for it.

I wasn't really that nervous during the interview. Reason being, I was not alone and that I know i have nothing to lose even if i perform badly. Think i did pretty alright. Though did not impress. My self intro sucks! lolx.

Anyway, its a 8 to 2 interview, but my group has 9 interviewees to 2 interviewers. They didn't really have much time to ask us much questions actually. Its basically self intro and one economics question... " What is the problem with/about economics today and how can we use economics to solve this problems.

Its free for all. So a girl started answering. And as expected, she brought out the financial crisis. And said something about what leads to this crisis. The second girl then started to gave some textbook answers too.

Then i answered.

I said the crisis started all because of greed (Thanks to URMK man). lol. Then i said that the reason why Singapore is affected badly is due to the interconnected-ness of the world.

Solutions? Diversify our economy. Depend less on US and more on China, India, Middle East. Depend less on exports, more on sports related events.. Youth olympics, F1 etc etc.

Sounds so crappy. lolx. I don even know if my answer is logical. But I just don wanna give those textbooks answer, but just my views. No point saying those textbooks answers cos the prof knows much more than us. Of cos, I'm taking a risk here.

There's one more guy who (I think) have no knowledge about economics. But he presented his views till very powerful like that.

This is what he said...

"The problem with economics today is that its too complicated. Blah blah blah~~" Of cos he went on to explain.

I guess i'm lucky that my group was ok. Not many people from those elite schools, which i think will try to shoot down your views to support theirs. Half of my group comes from poly. Others from IJC, NYJC and HCJC. Luckily that HCJC guy is from the same company and platoon as me in sispec and he's not those kind of "shooter" or debater.. so not too bad.

For those who have not went for the interviews, here's some tips.
1) Do a impressive intro! Talk about your hobbies etc etc. things which they do not know about you.
2) Be confident. Even when you may not know what you are talking about. The NYJC guy was so stressed up (which i don know why) that he look as though he's gonna break down any moment.

People always say... Don judge a book by its cover. But in an interview, they can't possibly get to know you deep down. So.... just present your cofident self!

Random

How i wish life can be a game of UNO... There's always the reverse and skip cards that you can play.

It has been a long time since i last updated my blog. Shall post something tml morning. Till then, i shall do what i do best--Sleep!

Random blog..

Typed a whole chunk of stuff and deleted all away. Reason being i just feel inappropriate to write it here.

"We cannot change the cards we are dealt, just how we play the hand"

Quoted from someone called Randy Pausch.

How should I go able playing my hand?

Haiz..


Starting to get nervous for Friday. I'm just not prepared to recieve that posting though i used to want to get it.

POP ORH!!

I'm no longer a chao recruit and is a PTE from 10th March!

Yes! I've POP-ed!!

Woke up at 4am to get ready for our 24km graduation route march.

Route march was tiring... Fun... memorable... (and all positive adjectives that fits here).

I don't exactly enjoy my time in BMT, but given a choice, I would still wanna stay in my coy for the remaining of my NS. By I know its time to move on. Time for tougher training, to be a better man. =)

Anyway, looking back at certain activities we had for the 9 weeks. I decided to post something special/interesting about these events.

Live Range
Best invention: SAR 21 Scope. Its just good. =)
Worst invention: none. But if there needs to be something here, i'll say its IA!! (Luckily my "wife" didn't give me this problem during live range.)

Urban Ops
Best invention: Urban Ops is the best invention. Cos its really fun. lolx.
Worst invention: Blanks! Because nothing comes out when you fired but you're left with lots of carbon to clean!

HG throw
Best invention: Ear plugs! =)
Worst invention: nil

Field Camp
Best invention: Toilet bowl!! I'm sure there's no disagreement with this. Combat Ration is another one. Engineering gloves was helpful too.
Worst invention: Digging of shellscrape? lolx. Its tiring, but its "worth the effort" cos we get to have tactical RO after that! Wahaha! SHIOK!

SITest
Best invention: Toggle rope. Its your "ticket" to command school. lolx
Worst invention: Leopard crawl! Stretcher!

Route March
Best invention: Leukoplast! This is really damn good. Prevents your legs from getting blisters. I used it for my route marches and its really useful. Shall post the pic next time.
Worst invention: Muddy pathway? Route march with rain? lolx


(TO BE CONTINUED) I'm going off for dinner! =)


Sing! Sha la la la la~
la la la la la la la ~
I am recruit Jian Lin
I don know what to say.
I am recruit Jian Lin
I don know what to say.
So you better go off my way now,
or I'll call your name!
Sing! Sha la la la la~
la la la la la la la ~

I cant believe this song can last us 4km. =) It was the most fun 4km.

A level results...

I know this post comes rather too late. But anyway.. here it is...

AAAB.

B for GP.

Good enough?

To others, this may be a good result already. But it isn't for me. Perhaps my expectations are just too high for me. Or am I someone who will not be satisfied with whatever thats given to me? I hope its not the latter. For i know that all i wished for was 4 As and a B for GP was good enough.

On the other hand, I think quite a few people really expected me to perform better.

I don't know exactly how to put it, but i think you guys would understand after reading this.

Friday, i went up the stage to recieve the cert. Richard was saying that he's quite shock that i don't seem happy when i went up. And yes, I'm not exactlt happy about it. But, i don't think i'm sad too.

Anyway, i went up to Mrs Tan and heres what happen. She took a look at my results and said "I thought you could do better."

I was not surprised by what she said. I was calm but obviously, i do not know how else to respond.

I just thought thats just a better way to tell me that you've not met our expectations for you, or worst still, you've done badly.

Like I said, I'm satisfied with a B for GP. For I know I need to put in much much more effort if I'm really desperate for an A.

B for Econs. Disappointed? Not sure.

On first thought, I'm quite (to be honest, its very) disappointed with it. Firstly because its the only subject that I'm very interested and passionate about. Secondly, my econs grades has been rather consistent.

But on second thought, I knew I don't deserve an A if I'm really got it (honestly). It was the only subject that i did not study completely for the A levels. So i'm to blame for the grades i guess.

To think about it, I still think life isn't always fair. (I know i just nagging and nagging.) Theres certain things which i feel strongly about but i just will not say it or blog about it. For it can be rather sensitive. Those who know me well MAY know what i thinking about bahz.

To sum up my grades, its 4As and 3Bs.

I've kind of dropped the idea of applying for those prestigous scholarships. To think about it, theres just so many people out there with 7As. And those are the people that I'm competing with. Even though I may have CIP and some impressive CCA, I'm still not confident.

I think I'm just being realistic.

Went for SMU open house. Pondering whether to apply for school of business or Economics. Yes, the subject that i didnt do well in. =) The speaker for the School of Economics didn't really tell us much about what the course has to offer. All he did was to tell us more about the financial crisis and the budget this year. But I think it was very interesting as he analysed certain things. And most people will not be able to think of such things unless they think deep enough.

No matter what, I knew that a double degree in both will solve my problem. I just worried that i would not be able to cope. My mum's more worried though. =) Anyway, it'll still be my "first choice". I'm just thinking which course to put as my first choice. (I doubt anyone knows what i'm talking about though)

NUS and NTU open house this weekend. Shall go see see.

I'm thinking of taking the SAT reasoning test. Just to "boost" my chance of getting to a good uni and course and hopefully my confidence. But thats only if i can obtain a good score.

Not exactly sure if i wanna take it. For it'll mean that i'll have to mug hard (again). Honestly, I've forgotten much that i've learnt in school.


4 more days to make up my mind. I know it'll be too late in the end.

I just recieved a call from ms chua from pj telling me to go sch earlier. My first reaction? None. Throughout the phonecall, the only thing on my mind was... Who's miss Chua? lolx. It took a long while for me to realize that its miss kelly chua. lolx.

Somehow, i'm not nervous/excited/etc etc etc about the results. A levels result has not been occupying my mind for the one whole week while i'm in tekong. Even till this morning, i just "numb" about everything. (But my mum is overly excited about my results.)

Perhaps its because of tekong thats the cause of this.

Anyway, I just cant believe that i managed to clear my SOC within the timing. 6.18 min. lolx. I'm happy with that timing though i know i cant go faster.=) No more SOC (for now at least).

GP rehearsal was... ... I dont know how to describe too. But i know that no matter how tired i am, i'll still make sure i'll finish the whole thing. =)

Those days leading to POP was just great. I'm "complaining" about having too much time for stand two. (If you guys understand.lolx.)

4 more days to POP!!

I'm getting more sick. Kept coughing the whole night. I need my well deserved one week or so block leave.

I'm back from Tekong.. (again)

But then again... its not exactly "again"... if you know what i mean..

Had IPPT on Friday. The last and the actual one. I PASSED IT! And I've got Silver! =)

Must say its a big achievement for me. From fail to silver. From 2 pull ups to 8 pull ups. From 12:16 for 2.4km till 10+++. Its really something that i've never done before. BMT has indeed brought me to achieve certain things that i've not done before or do not think i could do.

Once a zero fighter, never a zero fighter! =)

I'm finally seriously sick while in tekong. Blame myself from being too "tan chi" bah. lol. Had fever on fri. Reached up to 38.2 degree. Today was better le.. but my throat hurts badly. Really very painful.

A levels results releasing soon. As usual, i'm still lost. I'm still not sure when i'll finally find the right path thats suitable for me... Haiz...

Gonna POP real soon. As much as i would go command school, i wished i could remain in my coy for the remaining of my 2 years.

I've been thinking of quite a few things these few days while in Tekong but I'm just plain lazy to recall everything and write it here.

SITest is over. Guess i did pretty alright. Not very well, not up to my expectations, but i guess its good enough. =)

A levels results are coming out soon. I'm not nervous. Just feeling lost i guess. Not nervous because having straight As no longer mean much to me. I used to be aimming for the best results and to top the cohort. But not now I'm sure. All these are no longer important. Because the "moltivation for me to strive for all these" are gone. And I'll be contended to just have the results that would enable me to get into the course and uni that i want to go to. But i've not thought of what i want exactly yet. And thats why I'm feeling lost and hoping that the results will not be released that early.

I've made up my mind about going to command school and have indicated my choice too. My buddy says that you'll need to have "moltivations" to help you get through the tough trainings in command schools. I agree totally with him. I know what i've got and what i don't. Hope i would regret the steps that i shall take from now on.

I was not chosen for the MP interview. Neither am i chosen for intel. Disappointment is the only thing i can say i guess. Nobody would know how i feel and there's just no one i can turn to to share all my feelings.. just because not everyone understands. I curious to know the criteria for MP selection. I'm curious to find out why i did not meet their requirements. I know all these are no longer important, but i'm just curious.

Gonna POP like real soon. I don't really know if i should be happy about it or what. Some things are just hard to explain.

NS stuff aside, I think i'm starting to enjoy my life more now.. in a different manner from the past. I'm spending my time doing more fulfilling stuff i guess.

Was thinking of buying a MP4. Went looking for it briefly today. Didn't buy yet. And by dinner time, i decided not to buy one. I just don wanna regret spending half or over half of my pay on it. its not exactly worth it actually. I don really need a MP3 or 4 urgently now actually.

I just don know, but i'm confussed. Too many things in my mind. Too many things that has yet to be decided. Too many things to think through. Too many too many stuff.. really. I really need a long LONG break. away from everything and just let my brain rest. Its contradicting actually. I didn't really get to use my brain in NS and yet now i'm sounding as though my brain's stressed up.


As much as i want to,
i know i cant.
Because i just cant get it through..
And i don have the confidence to do so.

Its all about NS

Time flies.

It has been one month since i've enlisted.

Have not been updating my blog.. Partly because...

1) I do not have the time to do so.
2) Some stuff could not be share/written here.
3) The above are pure excuses. I'm just lazy to update. lolx.

Everything is fine I guess. NS life has a fair share of everything.

The first 2 weeks of confinement week was alright. I thought I achieve certain things which I've not done before. Just had that feeling to wanna "push myself more". =)

Got my Marksman too! =) Was initially going for the coy best shot. But i missed one shot. Was damn emo after i missed that shot. But I concluded something from that.. You'll perform better without "stress". lolx. Cos after that shot, every shot was fine. More of enjoying myself more than trying to shoot well.

Went for SDC visit. Nothing much to say, but i just wanna quote something which one of the "officer" said. (He got this from another famous person too.)

"In times of war, there's no prize for the runners-up."

I agree totally.

Just ended field camp. Came home with blue blacks on my knees. Its just because of one activity and my knees blue black liao. lolx.

Field camp makes me ponder about whether i really wanna go command school or just be men. I've not made up my mind yet. I just need my confidence back. CONFIDENCE! =)

"ANIMAL BEHIND TREE!!!"

WAHAHAHAHAA. You will only know about the joke if you're in my platoon. lol. Ask me about it if you wanna know. Its very embarrassing yet funny.


Roughly 1 month to POP! =)

Off to tekong..

2 more hours before i'm leaving house for tekong..

To those i care and those who care for me:
Take care of yourself while I'm away! =) Anything you may always sms me. I'll reply to you as soon as i got the time. See you guys 2.5 weeks later!

To my friend who wrote a "love letter" for me (you should know who you are):
The message above is for you too. Apart from that, just wanna say, don be too pessimistic over 2009. You've gotta be more confident of the things which you are capable of doing, having more confident of the things which you think you may not do it. Sometimes, if you don't try, you'll never get to know that you have the ability to overcome certain things. Strive hard to achieve all that you can this year. Mug hard and before you know, 2009 would be over soon. Trust me.. its a tiring year, you've gotta hang on, keep telling yourself you can do it! What you lack is the confidence and the belief in yourself! JIA YOU!! =) Take care!

Alright peeps! cya in 2.5 weeks time. Preben says coy O is packing up. Maybe i'll be his neighbour! lolx. Kinda nervous, emo etc etc. Don worry! I'll miss you all! =)

Not forgetting those who sent me all the well wishes. Thanks.
-Wei shan-Yan ting-Kathy-Ng Li-Preben-Karen-Wing Kiong- Jia Xin-Wei Lun aka Mary-Yan De-Desiree-Eugene-

(Hope i didn't miss out anyone. Thanks to those who wished me well)

And thanks to my perhaps platoon/company mate, Recruit Neo, for everything that you've done!

The 2 days before NS

MON:

Went out with my parents today. More of accompanying them plus going to buy some stuff for enlistment too.

They drove me to RS to collect my NYAA cert. It has been i long time since i last went back. Most things seem to have changed. Many teachers left. Met Mdm Sarojini though. =)

After collecting my cert, I went straight to NP room.. Something which i always do. I miss NP and I'll always miss NP. =) Saw a few "used to be" juniors outside NP room. THEY CAN RECOGNISE ME!! lolx. They are sec 4 now.. so called Cadet Leaders. Time flies, I'm old.

Saw this at the General office earlier on. Was SHOCKED!



We got GOLD for UOPA 2007. Though its 2007, but I still have that sense of achievement in me. Because back then when i was still in NP, I always hoped that our unit could be a Gold unit. To be amongst those strict units which always get Gold. But I know, our unit would be different. =) For we treat cadets as humans! haha. Not that serious though.

I'm kinda jealous of the batch after us. Having achieve UOPA Gold and having 3 cadets awarded SPF badge just because they allow more cadets to be given this award. I'm sure i (as well as some others) would be able to get that badge (which i had always wanted) if i'm born a year later. I'm jealous and envious!

Saw this at NP notice board. Something very familiar.

Those in NP would know..

I went somewhere later. Wanted to look for something which i always wanted to see. It left me disappointed though.

Certain things shall be kept in my heart (Perhaps forever)

Kept thinking about that issue while walking to CWP.

Perhaps... perhaps if i have not made the decision i made during sec1, I would have "gotten" what i want.

Awards and recognitions are just BONUS. What matters is the process..

I'm lying to myself.

Like it or not, such some "bonus" are important to me.

I know you all wont understand what i'm writing. I could only think of 1 person who may guess it.. =) Its not a "her".

Went JP for dinner. Sort of a "farewell" dinner.

NL, YT, Mel, ZY, JX, Kar, WK and me. 8 of us to New York New York.

This is what i ate. Its spicy lor! Didn't managed to finish. Cos i cant cont eating! lolx

Had dessert later which was funny.

Imagine having realised my Apple Crepe has been WK's Pineapple Crepe only after we have eaten halfway through? lolx.

Saw some baked bean look-a-like raisins. So we playfully called for a waitress to ask.

Me: Excuse me, can I know what is this? (pointing to the raisin)

Waitress: (stunned face... stunned for quite long man! lolx.)

Me: Nvm nvm, its ok.

I din really expect her to come back later on to say..

Waitress: Sir, that is raisins!

Haha. The whole table laughed. But seriously, I'm impressed as much as I'm shocked.

That [(11,7)(0,1)(3,6)(10,9)(6,3)(7,7)] [(3,4)(4,5)(6,12)(5,7)] is cute! lolx.

Hey Lao Dao. Thats a big clue to your free meal ya?

Anyways, i really enjoyed myself yesterday. Thanks to all! It was with you all that I can forget the unhappy stuff!

Did something damn stupid last night which made me look stupid!

I [(1,2)(20,1)(10,10)] myself while [(11,8)(4,4)(1,0)(11,11)(2,7)(7,7)(3,4)]!!

Not exactly [(1,2)(20,1)(10,10)] though.

Was bleeding the whole night. Had to hold a tissue and sleep! Later to pek chek then i just use a masking tape to tape a small tissue to my face and sleep! It looks stupid i know. =p

TODAY:

Went swimming with WK and EUG. Was shocked that mum allowed me to go. Dad was "nagging" though.. actually more of asking me to be careful lahz.

Dad to me: 小心一点。有谁跟你一起游？有旁边就好，不要游在中间..........(it went on and on)

Mum to dad: Haiya. there got "bao an ren yuan" de lahz!

I laugh till siao.. Isn't that jiu shen yuan? lolx.

Was extremely demoralised after i cant complete 50m! To have realised that you cant swim 50m only on the day before your enlistment... the feeling sucks!

After much short distance swimming i managed to swim 50m!! That's my first 50m of 18 years! lolx.

Was breathless after that though.

Sometimes, i dont exactly know if i should be greatful for how much my parents protect me, or "blame" them for "over protecting" me. Its "all for your own good" i guess.

Went to collect my specs. Shall post the pics next time.

TRIED to pack my stuff. I cant find the HP that i'm gonna bring in! WTH!

Something came to my mind while i'm on the bus to swimming this morning...

我曾经因为你而失去了很多。
现在，我因为失去你而得到了许多。

Complain!

My dad planning for a cruise trip during the weekend before CNY WITHOUT ME!!

ARGH!

SOB SOB!

=(

NEW CODE!

Haiz. Is my code really that easy to decode?

MEL AND YT!! TRY THIS!

Clue: Fruit

Code: 11,12 1,0 10,10 2,3 13,5 10,3 2,3 6,6 7,8 7,7

Haha. You sure cant decode liao. =) This code kinda stupid though.

3 days and counting down... =)

"BEEP!"

That marks the unofficial first day of my start to adulthood yesterday.

The familiar yet unfamiliar sound.

ITS EXPENSIVE! lol.

Woke up yesterday at 7.40 plus. Extremely early! Only slept for 2 plus hours.

Partly because i'm too hot and partly because those stupid mosquitoes gave me lots of lovebites!

My sis din kena any. WTH. The stupid "suckers" only drink blood from people who do not cover their legs with blanket. My sis was fully covered!

Had a very special cum wierd craving when i woke up. I WANT TO DRINK COLD CRYSANTHAMUM DRINK! lolx. I walked to kitchen and had my COLD crysanthamum drink before going back to sleep. But failed to.

My first time having a craving for anything. I guess there'll be more cravings next time. lolx.

Mum say... Since you cant sleep, go breakfast with us.

I agreed. Time to spend more time with them. Plus! they'll drive me to RP! I can save on my bus fare! lolx.

Had 2 bowls of porridge. Bloated like siao! lolx. My dad "thinks too highly" of me. Or rather my stomach.

When RP for ping pong and badminton as usual. Usual thing. Nothing much to say.

Went Long John Silver for dinner thereafter. Was asking ZX about certain stuff about him and his gf. Kinda paused and think about things in the past. (I'm not emo.)

Romantic things i did? many. lolx.

I read on "I weekly" that the horoscope that will be the best husband is Aquarius. Kinda "announce" it to my whole family immediately after reading it. Its rather accurate i think. (As in the description that mention! I'm not saying that i'll be the best! ) Quite reflecting of my dad. He's also aquarius.

Went shopping with ZH today. Not exactly shopping. Merely went to CWP to buy some army stuff before going KFC for lunch. Then went library to learn some knots. I finally knew how to tie sheetband. Have forgotten it long ago. I'm too ashame to say that i've forgotten how to tie a knot that helps us win 4th position for the Campcraft Comp.

Thats Sheetbend..

Double Sheetbend..

And this is what i learn today. The S knot. Same function as the fisherman knot, but its nicer and stronger.

When home at 3. Borrowed some army books too. Some tips that they give seems useful. =)

Mum brought me to go make my specs. $100 bucks! Ouch! lolx. Its nice though. Shall post a pic of it when i recieve it on Tues (just in time for army)

Went home and helped mum to mop the floor plus kitchen. Haven't been helping her much since i entered JC. Used to do so in the past though. I told mum she's my Sergeant at home. Always wanna "tekan" me. LOLX.

Mahjong session at night. Just ended. Won $4. LOLX! Its quite an "ok" amount, considering we only played 50 cents and $1. =-)

Thats all bah. Shall wake up early tml.. if i can.

Shall write about the horoscope thing that i read next time when i got the time.




Zhong Hao "made me understand" the difference between my sec sch friends and my JC friends (not everyone though). Its all about TRUST.

Updates on my hols.

Alright.. so here comes the long long update of dec.. from class chalet till today?? lolx. I realised.. the longer i drag on, th more things i gotta blog about and the more i don feel like updating the past anymore. lolx

21 Dec 2008

Was supposed to meet up with the rest in the morning to buy stuff for our chalet de BBQ. But made up my mind to give it a miss just because i'm pissed off with the msg that was relayed down. Instead decided to go straight to Kallang to meet the rest for the soccer match instead.

The rest of them were still at Pasir Ris waiting for bus when i reach Kallang. Kinda expected that though. Went to ask if i could buy tickets for the rest too. Surprisingly, the person allowed me to buy 15 Student Tickets. (Which i later regretted helping them buy first)

So here it is.. AFF Suzuki Cup Semi Finals between Singapore and Vietnam. =) This is my first time watching a live soccer match of such scale i think.

Singapore lost the game. It was really very sad that Singapore lost man, considering that they play pretty well that day. But a simple counter attack by Vietnam ends the campaign for Singapore. I was still thinking of going for the Finals should Singapore win the match man.

Anyway, Vietnam went on to win the Suzuki Cup. I think the awards given out was crappy man. Vietnam's goal keeper got the MVP award. WTH. Thailand was awarded the Fair play award. Fair play? Like real.

Ok.. enough of the match.

Went back to chalet and went on with night cycling.

I don't know exactly how far we managed to cycle that night. But i just know.. the route is very very long. We cycled from 12.30 till 4 plus near 5 before having breakfast at mac and cycled back to chalet again from 6 (if i'm not wrong) till 9 plus.

Though the whole cycling was tiring, and we met up some problems with some of the bikes, but i must say.. I really enjoyed the ride to the Mac for breakfast. Really. And yes.. its only the trip to Mac and not the return trip.

The trip to Mac was just something which i will rmb forever. Really. I told Eugene that its the only event in these 2 years that was sucessful. Of cos the first class outing to Sentosa was fun too. But at least, for that night, i know that there's at least something that can unite the girls and guys from our class. There's something that both can do together and both would enjoy and both would not quarrel. =)

Its a real pity that noone brought their camera for night cycling.

The return trip was horrible. I shall not elaborate more. All i wanna say is that, I saw through some people de personalities.

22 Dec 2008

2nd day of chalet. Had BBQ at night. I appreciate those who took the initiative to start up the fire (esp WK) and the girls who helped out with the food stuff. For the rest who did not help out much and kept complaining/asking if there's any food to eat, i don really know what to say, but i just wonder why such people exist.

Caught a little of the nonya show before playing truth or dare with the whole class. Was fun too. =)

And of cos.. there were forfeit to the game too.. lolx

After which we played the game which QY introduced. Its some stupid game, but its fun, even though my right leg was red after that.

23 Dec 2008
Din manage to sleep that night. Went out to a near-by coffee shop with Eugene, WW, YT and mel to watch the soccer match between Chelsea and Everton. Only managed to watch the first half, cos we'll too tired.. or sleepy rather. lolx.

Was extremely pissed off in the morning. I've never been so pissed off in front of the class before. I guess everything that happens during the last few days just pile up. Started with night cycling, then that person's attitude during BBQ and morning time and the conversation they had with WK just makes me fed up.

26 Dec 2008

After a whole night of cycling during chalet, i realised my left leg, which was injured initially was full of blue blacks! lolx. My mum says its because of the cycling.

Looks like a rotten leg to me.. lolx.

Anyway, went back to the sin seh again. This time round another person draw blood out. Yes, AGAIN!! And he draw blood out from 3 different parts of my leg!! The blood flowed this time round. Thanks to the vege that my mum has been forcing me to eat. The blood is kinda disgusting actually. Din managed to take any pics though.

27 Dec 2008

Rotting a home today. Was merely playing PSP the whole day. lolx.

Went out for dinner today. Celebrated my grandma's 67th birthday.

29 Dec 2008

The class had dinner. Was meant as a farewell dinner for the guys who are going to NS soon. I decided not to go. I guess i'm tired of the guys in my class. Ok, i know its a sweeping statement. There's some which i hope to avoid and there's some who can truely be real buddies with.

When Mer house to play ping pong. The guys were there playing street soccer with S21. I avoided them. Din even went to say hello. Went straight to play ping pong with YT and JX.

30 Dec 2008

4/6 class gathering at YD house. It was great getting to meet up with the rest. There were those who i have not met for 2 full years. lolx.

Though the cliques still exist and though i did not manage to talk to every single one, but i think having a gathering is still better than none. At least i get to meet up with those who are significant to me.

Initially wanted to meet up earlier at 12 noon for lunch at cwp before going over to YD house at 2pm to help out. Haha. Luckily both WL and ZH can't make it for lunch! Cos i only manage to wake up at 12.45pm. lolx. Went to Admiralty MRT station to meet WL before going over to YD house. Din manage to help him out though. =p

Slack awhile at his home before going to play street soccer. I din play. Din wanna injure my leg again. Just see them play, though i'm tempted to join.

Looking forward to the next gathering.. If theres any..

The "rivals": Man U me, Arsenal WL, England YD. A pity that ZH wasn't wearing any jersey. PS: He's the one wearing the cap in the 2nd pic above.

31 Dec 2008

Badminton and ping pong at RP today with YT and her friends, Asta and friend, JX ,HT,NG and WC.

I guess i'm gonna miss these badmin and ping pong sessions.

Din go for any countdown party this year. Partly because there's noone to go with, partly because i'm not in the mood too. But this year's countdown is definitely a better one for me then the past 2 years, for the past 2 countdown sucks. (if you know what i mean)

Thats all for the updates. Merely 5 days left before i go "overseas". I'm optimistic aren't I?

I have to spend these last few days wisely.. i must.

2 Jan: Badmin and ping pong at rp again

3 Jan: Go shopping with ZH for NS Stuff.

4Jan: Guess i'm going for the "many course" and intensive dinner with my parents. Though i don like Sunday dinners, i guess its the only way i could spend more time with them.

5Jan: Perhaps going for Sakura with my sis and mum. Was thinking of going back RS to take my NYAA cert. Outing with the "rivals" too?

6Jan: Currently empty. Hope to have dinner with my family. =)

7Jan: Sayonara~

Like what Eugene said... Its all planned out after that... =)

New Year 2009!

Happy New Year!! Ok, i know its kinda retard to post such new year greetings at these hour but i'm just lazy plus no time to do such thing last night (or rather this morning.) =)

Anyway... To all those who I love/care, and to all those who care for/love me...

" I hope that you guys will have a wonderful 2009, a year that will hopefully be much more better than 2008. May all your wishes/hopes/dreams come true this year. Stay cool, stay hip, stay happy, stay health and stay (whatever good words that can fit you) ! "

To a special group of people who have showed me extra concern and extra care during some difficult times..

" 2008 have not been a good year for me. But I thank you people for being there for me, showing me that extra bit of concern, that extra bit of care. All that you all have done, is significant to me. In the coming year ahead (and beyond) i hope we'll stay close as we are and that if you people need any help, I'll be there for you all! =)"

New Year new hopes... I don really know what i really want in 2009. But i know if I'm really gonna think about it and to list it, it'll be alot.

So here i go... I'll just write down things that comes to my mind now.
1) Have an enjoyable BMT in tekong, and hopefully, make it to OCS. "I'll try make it to OCS for "you" k? Even though you din "request" for it. =) [the "you" here isn't someone you are thinking of]
2) Have a clear direction of where to go after army. Especially for things like what course to take, what university to go and stuf like that.
3) Hopefully.. I'll be able to get a scholarship. I really really hope this wish will come true. Simply because i don wanna be a financial burden to my parents and secondly i want a UNIQUE university experience.
4) More time to meet up with my friends. And to be close to friends who were once close to me.
5) I need my confidence back!
6) I hope to be a more knowledgeable, more mature, more sensible me by the end of 2009!
7) OH! Almost forget... I want straight "A"s for my A levels. =) With the exception of PW. =)

Ok bahz... 7 should be more than enough.. =)