A level results...

I know this post comes rather too late. But anyway.. here it is...

AAAB.

B for GP.

Good enough?

To others, this may be a good result already. But it isn't for me. Perhaps my expectations are just too high for me. Or am I someone who will not be satisfied with whatever thats given to me? I hope its not the latter. For i know that all i wished for was 4 As and a B for GP was good enough.

On the other hand, I think quite a few people really expected me to perform better.

I don't know exactly how to put it, but i think you guys would understand after reading this.

Friday, i went up the stage to recieve the cert. Richard was saying that he's quite shock that i don't seem happy when i went up. And yes, I'm not exactlt happy about it. But, i don't think i'm sad too.

Anyway, i went up to Mrs Tan and heres what happen. She took a look at my results and said "I thought you could do better."

I was not surprised by what she said. I was calm but obviously, i do not know how else to respond.

I just thought thats just a better way to tell me that you've not met our expectations for you, or worst still, you've done badly.

Like I said, I'm satisfied with a B for GP. For I know I need to put in much much more effort if I'm really desperate for an A.

B for Econs. Disappointed? Not sure.

On first thought, I'm quite (to be honest, its very) disappointed with it. Firstly because its the only subject that I'm very interested and passionate about. Secondly, my econs grades has been rather consistent.

But on second thought, I knew I don't deserve an A if I'm really got it (honestly). It was the only subject that i did not study completely for the A levels. So i'm to blame for the grades i guess.

To think about it, I still think life isn't always fair. (I know i just nagging and nagging.) Theres certain things which i feel strongly about but i just will not say it or blog about it. For it can be rather sensitive. Those who know me well MAY know what i thinking about bahz.

To sum up my grades, its 4As and 3Bs.

I've kind of dropped the idea of applying for those prestigous scholarships. To think about it, theres just so many people out there with 7As. And those are the people that I'm competing with. Even though I may have CIP and some impressive CCA, I'm still not confident.

I think I'm just being realistic.

Went for SMU open house. Pondering whether to apply for school of business or Economics. Yes, the subject that i didnt do well in. =) The speaker for the School of Economics didn't really tell us much about what the course has to offer. All he did was to tell us more about the financial crisis and the budget this year. But I think it was very interesting as he analysed certain things. And most people will not be able to think of such things unless they think deep enough.

No matter what, I knew that a double degree in both will solve my problem. I just worried that i would not be able to cope. My mum's more worried though. =) Anyway, it'll still be my "first choice". I'm just thinking which course to put as my first choice. (I doubt anyone knows what i'm talking about though)

NUS and NTU open house this weekend. Shall go see see.

I'm thinking of taking the SAT reasoning test. Just to "boost" my chance of getting to a good uni and course and hopefully my confidence. But thats only if i can obtain a good score.

Not exactly sure if i wanna take it. For it'll mean that i'll have to mug hard (again). Honestly, I've forgotten much that i've learnt in school.


4 more days to make up my mind. I know it'll be too late in the end.