=)

I think i need to find back the moltivation to get things going on. Felt like i lacked the self discipline to get things done. Its getting alot worse when certain things that are not pretty much within my control ain't turning out fine too.

I haven got started with my self study/revision as what i planned. Have been dragging on with the time. Overseas trips ain't getting anywhere too. No firm plans for europe or vietnam yet. Really gotta start forcing myself to be in the right gear to get things start once and for all.

There's one thing that has been on my mind these few weeks. It has been weeks and i haven gotten any replies, and that, isn't really a good news at all. In fact, the longer it drags, the more worried i am and the less confidence i have, considering the kind of confidence level that i have now in getting a positive reply. I'm not really aiming for the very best, for i know the chances are really slim (perhaps even zero). But i just wished that i can get something that can offer me more than just the bare minimum. And something that will last the full 4 years. Cant really do much now, since i've screwed it up. =(